Change is loss

Sho, this was originally going to be a post about how much I love going to churches where I actively disagree with the preaching but I realise that “love” and “”enjoy” are not suitable words for this. My last “church” was a semi worthwhile substitute which served the useful purpose of refining my opinions but ultimately it made me doubt my convictions and hate myself.

My masochistic tendency to go to churches that I dislike for long periods of time is (hopefully) dead. I am now worshipping in a community that challenges me for the right reasons and where I feel like it’s ok to disagree. There was a time recently where that would have seemed like a dull prospect…

I will mourn the passing of the most argumentative phase of my faith and hope that with its passing I can move towards a greater understanding of the people I disagree with. I now know that i need to be in a supportive, loving place so that can happen.

~ by hollybunch on April 16, 2009.